Pride and Shame: Like Sunshine and Rain (Yes I Went There)

I have officially started working out again and I even look forward to it because it is a place I can go everyday that has nothing to do with obligations. I can be anonymous and don't have to fulfill a role as teacher/student and I don't have to be articulate or insanely prepared. Oh, and how about the joys of shuffle when you forgot you ever downloaded Rick Springfield one night this summer when you were drunk. Or how about when Christina Aguillera's "Fighter" comes on? Totally worth it. Yeah, I'm feeling pretty good about myself because I am doing 90 minutes of cardio a day 5 days of the week, weight training twice a week with a trainer, and tomorrow will start a once a week yoga class. I just hope I keep it up (at least to some degree) when the cold weather sets in.

Now, onto a more shameful, confessorial note: I hate myself for thinking there's something sexy about JustinBobby. I know. Yes, I'm aware of the combat boots at the beach. I didn't say I supported that. He's an idiot, pretentious loser that doesn't need to have his ego inflated any further by people like me and AJ finding him hot. I guess I'm just a dirty old woman. At least Audrina can say she's 20 and stupid. What's my excuse? I think it's the voice that puts him over the edge for me. Also, I was a big fan of the fuck buddy when I was single. I guess I see JustinBobby as perfect fuckbuddy material and maybe that's what it is. No, wait...I'm turning 36 next month. Aren't I supposed to be hitting my sexual peak any day now? You know, I was looking forward to this sexual peak business but if it means I'll be finding the JustinBobby's of the world sexy, maybe it's not all it's cracked up to be.